the world I was put in
the person I really am
the life I long to have
The world I was put in… was one of moral beliefs and spiritual routines. Those two things, simply put, were “avoiding sin” and “reading the Bible.” Together they added up to faith, so I was told. Church was the weekly cornerstone of this religion I found myself in. I have spent three decades disentangling myself from it.
The person I really am… was a mystery to me until my mid-twenties, although I had some glimpses of her from the time I was a young girl, eight or nine. What I discovered later in my life were two things: One, I am an extremely sexual woman. Two, the woman I really am is one of profound submissive need and desire.
The life I long to have… is one in which the people I know are people who accept the person I really am. The life I long for is one in which people love me even knowing I have a sexually submissive life, scandalous by most common perception. The life I long for is one in which I’m dominated by both men and women in ways that are safe yet extreme.
How do you answer the three things?